So last week I bragged about how well I was doing this semester working towards my goals. I try to be as honest as possible here but fell into the lure of painting a perfect picture on social media. In reality I’m a stressed-out mess right now.
The other night, I couldn’t sleep. I laid in bed all night trying to calm my racing mind. I couldn’t do it and got more and more worked up as the hours passed; I think I ended up with about two hours of sleep. It was a wakeup call (no pun intended).
I can’t do it all. And I need to accept that’s okay.
I do have big goals I want to achieve but I can’t let tomorrow’s dreams take away today’s peace. I know I’m in for a tough couple of years with school but life is too important to not enjoy it now.
So I’m refocusing and reprioritizing.
This post was originally supposed to be about training for a half marathon while doing the 35 Day Challenge at Jazzercise. I’ve decided to drop back from the half to the 5k. It’s a half I want to do someday but this year isn’t right for it. Cutting out running and just doing Jazzercise classes for the challenge will help immensely.
The only other area I can really cut back on right now is this blog. I love blogging and plan to continue, but I’ll probably go back to posting only three times a week, maybe less depending on how much I have going on that week.
My plate will still be full with school, Jazzercise, PT, nannying, and Girls on the Run starting soon (I think searching for new coaches is what trigged the anxiety attack the other night). However, I’m hoping that giving myself permission to not do everything and know that what I am doing is enough will allow me to breathe.